Lol - oh, sorry, I didn't have a fitting answer at hand; I meant that you are not a pessimist "at all" ... "waiting for it to rain", while you feel "soaked to the skin"; I should have added "and neither looking too much through rose-coloured glasses".
Actually, I should have looked into the whole confusing "contradicting elements" which seem to be "contradicting themselves" with opposed descriptions:
"I am so often accused of gloominess and melancholy. And I think I'm probably the most cheerful man around.
I don't consider myself a pessimist at all. I think of a pessimist as someone who is waiting for it to rain. And I feel completely soaked to the skin. …
I think those descriptions of me are quite inappropriate to the gravity of the predicament that faces us all. I've always been free from hope. It's never been one of my great solaces. I feel that more and more we're invited to make ourselves strong and cheerful. .... I think that it was Ben Jonson who said, I have studied all the theologies and all the philosophies, but cheerfulness keeps breaking through."